I'm feeling better today. I got to sleep in my comfy bed after being gone a couple of days, which is always nice. And another full night's sleep helped too. Woke up early so I could talk to Steve. Although that conversation didn't make me very happy. His boss wanted him to stay until Oct 12, which is unacceptable, since baby will be here just a few weeks after that! But as it is he can't leave before 6 months is up or he will have to pay for the ticket to get home plus pay his boss back for the ticket to get there. Well that is 2 grand that can be used for other things. But doesn't keep it from being painful.

Anyway, today I went by Dr. Guiley to ask about my Adderal. As suspected, he said I should stop taking it immediately. I had already stopped taking it when I began to suspect I was pregnant. So that wasn't an issue. Then I asked the OB doc about working burns and stuff. They talked like it wouldn't be a problem, I am cleared to lift up to 50 lbs, and they said as long as I wear a mask on burns, I should be okay. I really don't feel comfortable being in the smoke though...I don't think they really understood how much smoke I eat when standing on the fireline. But she encouraged me to keep doing it, because women who get exercise have easier labor and delivery. I plan on still going to the gym and doing some treadmill and weight work, I don't want to gain too much weight. I will probably still go on burns, but not sure yet what capacity. I know how easily I get tired, so I don't think I'll be much good out on the burns. I am going to use this weekend to see how I will be able to handle being out...we have the Sierra Club coming to Washington State Park to do some cedar cutting and burning. I'll be hauling chunks of cedars to the burn pile as long as I can. But I'll be sure not to wear myself out too much. Weather may cancel everything though, its supposed to storm and I don't want to be out in that. They want to burn at Johnson's Shut Ins on Tuesday, that is 800 acres of hilly hell, so I am a bit nervous about that. I'm going to have to tell everyone, but I just hate to do that when my own family doesn't know. I kinda hope things gets cancelled this weekend so I can go to Rolla and break the news. Otherwise I will have to wait till Monday afternoon.

Today I had a headache all day. Not being able to take Excedrine is a BITCH. Tylonol is all I'm allowed, and that doesn't do a thing. My lower back hurts pretty bad after sitting or standing for a while. And then the tiredness. Tired all the time. But didn't need a nap today, so that was better.

Tried to look for places to rent closer to STL, found nothing but a bunch of cute houses for sale. Of course. Ugh. I wish I could just buy a house. Then I could decorate the nursery just how we want, we can have a space to call our own without worrying about the people next to us or above us, and finally...can stop throwing money away in rent. But anyway. The hunt will continue I suppose...for now I am exhausted and have a very long day tomorrow.